if im mad, lonely, or feel worthless i starve myself. if im guilty, confused, hurt, or alone, i eat and eat and eat, but purge later. this isnt about being skinny anymore- its just my way of dealing with how i feel
At first you just wanna loose like a pound or too, you just wanna look healthy.
Then next thing you know you want people to look at you and worry, you want bones, you want to be so scary skinny that you weigh almost nothing.
Those skinny people used to worry you, they used to make you sick, but now all you want is to be one of those people.